The doubts come creeping in like a quiet stalker.

“Who am I to write…to share my thoughts and perspective? I’m just a girl.”

But then He whispers to me, sweetly and softly…”Because they need to hear.”

So I sit at my keyboard and write to you. Yes, you. What are you seeking? Are you like me, trying to make sense of this crazy world we live in? To ease our suffering, to find something that can make it easier, more understandable?

The horrible truth is that all the problems in our world are because of us! We all have rebel hearts. No matter how hard we try, we all make mistakes, hurt those we love, say the wrong thing, do the wrong thing. We just can’t get it right. And of course, many are just outright evil.

This is the curse of the human race. The moment the fruit was eaten and the juice dripped down their chins, Adam and Eve realized their grave mistake: rebellion against God, their creator. They had all they ever needed, living in beauty and peace, but they still wanted the one thing God said they couldn’t have.

As the song goes, we’re looking for love in all the wrong places.

I thought I understood what being a Christian was all about. I was raised in the church, but like so many, I strayed. I searched high and low to fill the emptiness in my heart…drugs, alcohol, self-help books, seminars, conferences, men, work, exercise, diet, TV, movies, etc. etc. etc. NONE of it satisfied me. It wasn’t until I reached a place of utter brokenness that I realized with a shock what God had done for me. He had been waiting for me all that time, waiting for my rebel heart to raise a white flag in surrender to Him.

He called my name that day. And I answered.

And the glorious thing about it is that I didn’t lose who I am! I thought that giving my life over to God meant I would turn into an automaton. Quite the opposite. God created me with all my warts AND awesomeness and He wants me to be happy! He wants me to fulfill the passions of my heart because He was the one who put them there in the first place! The closer I get to the Lord, the more I find out who I truly am. And it’s an amazing, glorious journey.

Come, fellow rebel heart. He’s calling your name. Let’s raise our white flags together.